Gaining and Losing
13th Feb 2009
It’s my birthday~~
Although it’s only about 6 hours left, then I remembered I have this blog. So I thought, why not write something to keep it to myself, so that when I read it next year(insyaAllah) I’ll know the difference between 24 and 25 year-old-me 😛
When it comes to birthdays, it’s just normal to get wishes from friends and families starting from the struck of 12 midnight. At least ,now, that I have computer, internet, phones. But, I do feel humans are getting bad in communication eventhough there are so many priviledges in communication nowadays. People don’t send letters, postcards, or even presents anymore. It’s not that I’m demanding for present or anything, and it doesn’t mean I don’t appreciate the wishes I get with so many new style. But it always makes me feel touched with warm words of a letters, instead of a Friendster comments or etc. Don’t you agree with me? The handwritings makes you feel closer to the person, and you can also feel the writer’s emotion when writing it. In the other hand, wishes from e-mail or something, just makes me feel a little curious of how the other person’s feelings when writing them. Plus, if the wishes is so short, that makes you think, does he/she really wanted to wish me ‘Happy Birthday’ because sometimes the wish is just ‘hepi bday!’? I mean, are you for real? 😛
Well, as for me, when it comes to 13th Feb, I always feel, well..it’s just a day to gain a year of living. But then, I realize, it’s also a day to lose a year to not living, ie. death. It’s not that I’m denying fate and my faith that we might die young, neither saying we’re all gonna die old, it’s just the way I feel. At least, I’m reminded of death thru birthdays, so it’s not something to celebrate so much either. That’s why I actually feels not so encouraged to get celebrated or having thrown a party or anything. Maybe it’s also because, I’m accustomed to it since I was a child, that I never had a party, or hardly a present, or anything like that. It’s just a day.
Well, I might change my thoughts someday, but now, that’s what I’m feeling. And I wanna keep it to myself. Hate my negativity? Well, that’s just me. Deal with it!*lol*
Last but not least, HAPPY 24th BIRTHDAY to me!!
May you have a life to remember when you’re old with grandchildrens, I hope..InsyaAllah..